August 2020 Love Letters: Day 19

Hello, sweetheart!

You are just so precious to me. My heart is overflowing with joy at the thought of you reading this and KNOWing my deep love for you is true. This is an act of dedication to you, self-discipline for me, and growth for us both. The past few days have held many precious moments and time spent in deep conversation and lots of random dancing in celebration of life. I have tapped into the joy and inner peace that comes along with my faith deepening and strengthening, and being shown that I am on the right path.

If only I could bottle this joy and pass it around for everyone to take a swig, I’d do it in a heartbeat. Instead, I will continue to do my best to radiate light, stay positive, and look for the silver lining in each situation. We MUST walk it out, my love. Can’t just talk about it; BE about it. Let everything you do be done in love, even what you do for yourself. In a conversation with my dear friend last night, we talked about being your own parent and what you would allow the younger version of yourself to do if you were a healthy and loving parent. Your kindergartner certainly wouldn’t be sitting around smoking a joint, now would they? (Yeah, I went there. Yeah, I said it.)

Self-discipline: a loving and healthy parent of your inner child, and a reflection of the loving parent in heaven who disciplines us as their children. As my friend pointed out, God is not sitting around waiting for you to screw up so you can be punished. Quite the contrary, in fact. God is love and is therefore a loving God. God LOVES you. God loves YOU. Yes, you, exactly as you are, no matter how far off the path you feel you may have strayed. God will never leave you nor forsake you. You are a part of THE body, and without you, we are not whole. God has their arms wrapped around you right now in a big ol’ mama hug. I am sending you one of those, too. 😉

Here is where I must leave you for tonight, my darling. Self-discipline means that I need to be aware of and enforce my own boundaries, which means it is bedtime. Buenos noches, mi amor!

Always and forever,

L Joy